When You Get A Snake Bite...

"When you get a snake bite, you're supposed to suck out the posion. And that's what I was doing; sucking the posion out of my life, one thing at a time."
This isn't the exact quote, but I read that in Mean Girls, and it really struck me as awesome and true. My problem with problem-solving (lol) is that I don't usually stick to solutions. I get lazy and go back to doing what I used to do, and everything just gets worse. But soon, this summer, maybe even tomorrow, maybe even right now, I'm going to decide to stick with my solution. Yeah, I'll do that sometime soon. :] But for right now I'm massively tired, although I do have much to say, things of value, too. Lol :) Goodnight, and I will write later, hopefully =D Have a great day/night :)

*btw, I write a lot of entries usually. just thought it best to warn you. :)

Orchid's Sky Intro... (Baaaad Day)

The first thing I'm gonna say is this--I went to create the URL for my blog as Orchidsky.blogspot.com, but that was already taken. I'm shocked. I made up that name...well, techinally found it as a suggested username on a disney website lol. :) But I love it dearly. And it's frustrating that someone who hasn't even written one post yet gets it. lol. But oh well. I get Orchid's sky. That's still very beautiful, and I write that on lists and papers sometimes as my name or the title of the article.
Honestly what inspired me to write this blog was Mean Girls. I wanted to rant, and felt like typing up anotthhherrr document on my computer and then saving it, and forgetting about it was just too sad. And journalling in the dark doesn't work; and besides, what's the point in ranting if know one's going to hear/read you? I don't think there is one, other than to get your own anger out. This way I can do both.
The only thing that's bothering me now is how depressed I must sound. I don't know, for some reason my writing seems dark and angry. Maybe that's just the mood I'm in right now. lol. I want to put bunches of smiley faces but that doesn't feel fitting AT ALL. I am angry. Sigh... ugh... I'm not really like this. I've just been in a bad mood lately. And I'm afraid of being in a bad mood any longer. I should do something about it, and I will. I'm just so lazy because of the fact that I'm in a bad mood, and I'm in a bad mood because I'm lazy...So it's a very, very vicious circle. Honestly, all my problems end up vicious circles. That's the effed up thing about it.
But when my circumstances aren't as they are now, and my brain isn't clouded with unhealthy thoughts, I'm a naturally happy and enthusiastic person. Sigh...It really does make me sad that I'm like this. But It's allll going to change, I promise myself that. I'm going to find real happiness, and love myself, and be healthy.
There's so much I could write about myself, but right now, I'm really not in the mood :( But I will say I'm very ambitious, I love film and theater, I adore books and writing, I like art and painting, I love to do crazy things and take risks, I live in the moment, because you can never get lost moments back, I live to apply quotations to life, and my favorite things to do are helping people, getting lost in a good book, umm.... sorry, I'm really distracted by a lot right now... and travelling. I'm moving to NYC soon, my favorite place in the entire universe (out of the places I've been... only 2 continents lol). That's something I'm beyonnndd ecstatic about. I'm also just ecstatic about the future in general.
Ok, well, trying to force out something that isn't an angry rant is really emotionally exhausting me. I'm really not usually like this...hahaha. I sound like someone from a movie. But seriously. Just want ya to know that. I pray that I'll feel a lottt better in the morning, though I know from experience how it will work out. Who knows. Everything is possible. I'll explain everything later... lol. Sorry for this probably very confusing post, my stress affects literally everything :) Have a wonderful day :)